When I stepped out of my self-made sabbatical in 2018 and felt the deep call to begin working with clients again, I was in a most beautiful place with God. Even while raising two teenagers and a pre-teen, I found myself navigating life with ease, peace, and grace. I understood intimately what it meant to be guided and supported by Spirit.
I lived in a state of surrender so complete that I rarely “thought” in the conventional sense. What I mean is: I was free from the obsessive mind—the mind of judgment, criticism, comparison—the mind I had labored to transcend through twenty years of spiritual practice. In its place arose stillness. Spaciousness. A deep and continuous connection with the Divine that accompanied me through the ordinary moments of life as a wife and mother.
What thoughts did arise were not of the personal mind, but of Divine Mind. They flowed with clarity and purpose. My inner guidance offered a higher lens, revealing insight and wisdom with ease. After sitting at the feet of yoga masters and drinking deeply from the well of spiritual teachings, I realized: this—this very state—was what they had always been pointing toward.
Through Surrender and Trust, I entered an inner sanctum of such profound peace that all worry and fear simply dissolved. I remembered what it meant to live truly, moment by moment. And in that remembrance, I was free.
In the years since, I’ve continued to grow—not just through practice, but even more so through struggle and challenge. Like the lotus flower, I found that to bloom into one’s full expression often requires roots in the muck.
There have been moments of anger with God. Frustration with the path. A part of me believed that once I’d touched the Divine so intimately, that Oneness would remain undisturbed for the rest of my life. But life, in its loving wisdom, had more to teach.
I now understand that while Oneness itself never leaves, our awareness of it can ebb and flow. The ego mind—once dormant—can rise again. Old patterns, long buried, may resurface, seeking to reclaim control. The effort to recapturebliss can become another form of striving.
And yet—what has forever shifted is this: the Divine Wisdom awakened within me can never be forgotten. The darkness that once bound me no longer holds sway. I know now, without a shadow of doubt, that in and with God, I AM more—more than fear, more than limitation, more than any illusion that seeks to keep me small.
Over the seven years since returning to the path of Doing, I’ve danced through countless expressions of Self. I’ve encountered opportunities and trials, blessings and breakdowns. I’ve explored the once-silent parts of me and witnessed them come alive.
Today, as I settle into a clearer knowing of what I love to do, of how I choose to show up and serve, I am reminded: this is the journey for us all.
We explore.
We play.
We fail.
We laugh.
We cry.
We expand.
We contract.
We hate.
We love.
We remember.
And through it all, we are given the sacred gift of choice—to meet life with an open heart, guided by the Divine within.
I am beyond grateful.
I am filled with reverence.
And I am excited for all that stands before me.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
